9:44:00 PM
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Sunday, February 24, 2008
i decided to write a post abt carol... i mus admit when i'm writing tis post, tears start dripping n my heart sank... she's my first love n certainly its a wonderful love... we started out on 28 nov 2005... i mus say its my first time n i really dunno many things, i admit i'm childish i'm mcp i've a bad temper etc... but she jus she always be by my side tryin her best to change me trying her will to correct mi... its hard for her n she is not obliged to do so but she did because of, all because of one reason; she wants mi 2 b a better person, she is more mature den mi she is more understanding den mi tts y... yet often i let her down often i made her angry often i repeat my mistake agian... i always tot tt by being wif her (be it literally) n tts it... but in fact i wrong damn wrong i'm NOTHING really i swear... i caused many misunderstanding btw her n my ppl arnd mi i made her seem like she's e bad person no she isn't she definetely not... who dosen't hv temper??? its in born yet i kick out a fuss over it... she made a difference in my life, she made a better person out of mi... i may seem laughing arnd but 1 true fact i cant let her go i cant i dare swear i swear i really love her still... its my fault tt all of e prob hv occurred... thinkin back on 14 feb 2008... she waited for mi outside my office alone when e wind r blowing so hard she who is afraid of cold waited n waited for mi 2 give mi a surprise n yes she did... she cooked for mi she even bought a shaver for mi... yes to others it may seem nth but 2 mi it seem everything...now we jus had some prob few days ago n e progression of healing is nowhere near... but i jus wan 2 say if tis time i'm losing u forever... i wan 2 wish for all e blessing to fall on u... rmb when u found e other half... tell him nv to walk my path, tell him to treasure u well, tell him tt he made a right choice, tell him tt u r afraid of the cold, tell him tt u dont take spicy food, tell him tt u prefer him to stand on ur right side, tell him tt u love to be hug n hug him as well, tell him to joke wif u, tell him to encourage u to sing in front of him, tell tt u hate ppl spending money unnecessary, tell him tt u hate ppl to lie, tell him tt u hate ppl who act like a gangster, tell him tt u hate ppl who swear, tell him tt u always love ur piggy n ur baby, tell him tt on ur wedding day u would prefer not to hold a grand wedding dinner, tell him tt u hv thought of ur future children names, tell him to exercise wif u, tell him to take u to see dolphins... e lists jus keep goin on n on because i try 2 put everything every memories in my head but i knw nth everything can get in... but before i end tis i would request u to tell him tt in e world there's a fool a stupid fool named jeremy.
12:35:00 AM
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Wednesday, February 20, 2008
haha... ok its been awhile while i blogged.. hmm now i'm settled into e workin environment so i'm much more at ease le... well its rather togh la initially but as i get e hold of it things get goin n i'm much more "free-er" as compared to e time when i jus started... but of course there's still mistakes n error...
well its really quite stressful sometimes cos i'm dealing wif loans frm big firms so i mus be extra extra careful n on time when doin things... but den its rather fun la but sometimes boring cos all e ppl arnd mi r all like 23 n above...although got 3 poly intern but den they sit damn far away frm my place so its rather or impossible for mi 2 interact wif them at all... but likely there's yik kwang arnd so can meet for lunch n aft work 2 go staff rec room... lol den tried out e facilities there... there got wii, k box, darts etc etc... its like wow!!!
hmm weekend went for a jc outing wif my gp teacher cos she came back frm usa... hahaha but seriously hv nth much 2 say also cos probably too tired when organising things n so on... hahah i guess i end here now.. bybeye
8:24:00 PM
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Thursday, February 14, 2008
today first day of work... wth damn xiong... got 2 do tis do tt run here run there, talk 2 ppl here talk 2 ppl there need 2 do registration counter, opening, closing, statement, delivery doc etc... wth come on its like CHILD LABOUR!!! working for 3 or mayb more dept... okok at least its tempt but i knw tt money is nv easy... so i'll save up definately...
today hv 2 learn almost everything cos e guy who was workin b4 mi goin 2 leave le... well so tts more or less abt it...
den aft work carol was waiting for mi outside my office i totally stun... den aft tt she cooked for mi n got mi a shaver i was like totally nth 2 say cos its out of my expectation totally... thanks thanks really
11:24:00 PM
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Wednesday, February 13, 2008
happy new yr... haha today went n watch p.s. i love you... well i would say its nice but there's some part whr its quite boring cos cant really understand...
but i got to say tis movie let mi drop tears... seriously esp e part whr its e last letter, whr everything that e guy wanted to say hv come to an end... whr there is no more letters, no more instruction, no more fun, no more rules n lastly no more him... its damn painful really painful... but i guess i'm not e onli wan cryin hahaha other guys as well... seriously.. hmm i dropped tears at e pt when the letter said "its the end, where its not about buying lamps and taking care of yourself. its about how you get on with life and start loving." (not excatly word for word but rather e meaning)...
wa tis statement powerful sia... totally owned... cos i imagine myself in e girls shoe i was like sad totally sad sad sad... hai well tis movie can go watch as in give it a try no harm really...
11:47:00 PM
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Tuesday, February 12, 2008
well ok... heard some rumors sayin tt alvl results will b out on fri... seriously its damn fast n scary cos its like damn not mentally prepared... well although i've set my target alr but e fear is still there... please i beg u 2 let mi enter into the course i desire... really hope 2 study tt subj...
well e main reason for studyin tt is because i not onli can help myself i can help others as well... because i knw my flaws n probs tts y i wan 2 major in the subj i wan so tt i can curb wif e stress level i hv as well as learn to take things easy... well its tough but i'll still try my best...
so please please please let mi enter into the course i wan... please
12:07:00 AM
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Sunday, February 10, 2008
hi guys... well nth much happen except went to my cousin hse 2 bet a little... n won abt 30 plus aft tt my 3 little cousin went 2 my place 2 stay over... den nth much la... lol
11:31:00 PM
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Friday, February 8, 2008
hahaha so how's cny today...? or rather ytd... well i guess some will b enjoying while some will be like sian while some may enjoy a bit den sian later... jus hope tt u all enjoy ur cny... well if u ask mi did i enjoy my ans is...
is there anything wrong?
2:35:00 AM
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Thursday, February 7, 2008
firstly Happy Chinese New Yr... hahaha new yr new wishes well all i wish for is for my family to stop arguing n my dad to stop being so violent... hai i dun wan to take him on one day if he turn nasty...
next i hope for peace n calm 2 my brothers in ns n those who r not yet...
next i wish for my friends to b happy n enjoy their life...
lastly i wish for world peace n e price of our daily needs includes fares to reduce (even a little i'm also happy).
well some add on... hey dad stop being such a violent person will u stop forcing mi to e end will u, u pushed mi once n i dont wan to b pushed again so please i beg u stop it... dont always make me envious other families because their father wont hit their mother please jus stop everything jus stop... dont make mi hate u because for all i knw i hate myself because i hate myself of becoming the possibility of an mirror image of u... if i ever b like u i swear i really swear i'll jump off any building n put a rope on my neck before jumping... i wont let an image of u to be born in mi... yes i hv part of ur character but i will control it... i promise if u ever ever come into my character i swear i'll end it for once.
12:32:00 AM
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Wednesday, February 6, 2008
lol... happy chinese new yr to all... hmm ytd went down to ocbc back for some interview yup so initially i tot i wont get it but in e end abt 9am they called and say that i've got e job... hahahaha 14feb start work... lol... finally out of jobless stage... hahaha
well feel so lucky to find a job... hahaha guys out there u can try going to tis web www.successhrc.com.sg to find job... lol
hmm today will be quite busy cos need to run errands for mum n also need 2 buy things n pay debt... hahaha den dunno tonight whether got gathering or not... lol well but no matter wad its a new yr a new beginning hahaha so take care everyone n enjoy taking red packets...
wondering around...
9:11:00 AM
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Monday, February 4, 2008
well busy a little lazy to blog but ya well today went down for an interview and ok not bad i feel that its sort off the best agent i've been wif... hahaha den for weekends nth much jus tt acc brothers n also lj got a huge bear for agnes n ok i send it to sch today...
ok let's start frm sat... morinin went airport 2 send eileen off to aus... den went n dye my hair copper but apparently it turn out to b lighter den copper... aft tt went down 2 emage to see my teachers but on e way i got lost yup thanks... lol aft tt went out wif brothers n home...
sun nth much jus went amk wif my relatives at night n yup back at hm 2 slp... so tts rather abt wad happened...
sometimes i jus feel that i really dunno wad to do i really dunno how... how i wish things could jus.....
7:58:00 PM
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Friday, February 1, 2008
well today went down to recruit express at nee ann city to find some job... to my surprise e ppl there a bit little... its like totally great singapore sales... lol but hope tt i can get a desire job rather den sales...
hmm one of my fren told mi tt i may not b suitable 2 b a psychologist... well actually its rather true cos i am easily tense up n tt i'm quite a pessimistic person as well... intially want 2 take up psychology cos i knw my flaws so i wan 2 take up psychology so as to treat myself n help others as well... hmm but nvm no matter wad i'll work hard towards my dream... well i believe tt one day i can find a cure to it...
6:41:00 PM
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hey guys... well today went down to levi for interview... well sort off got e job but e prob is tt i need 2 work on weekends... i dun mind tt but wad if i need to sacrifice the time to meet up wif my friends n brothers??? hai den went to kelly today one shot offer mi shop n save i was like ... hai dunno la i jus feel so lousy n useless because i cant get things done well n right... well been jobless for months n others r employed n mi??? unemployed n nvm still keep spending my family income... den plus now more n more ERP up i feel that by learning how 2 drive is a bit useless cos next time i would take more of mrt rather den car... hai today was one freaking emo emo emo day for mi... jus pray hard for tml ba... really pray hard...
but deep down i knw i got to blame myself for all these... if i'm more stable i'll b in ns alr wif my brothers n not like now... probably worst den a wandering ghost...
2:39:00 AM
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