Sunday, February 24, 2008
i decided to write a post abt carol... i mus admit when i'm writing tis post, tears start dripping n my heart sank... she's my first love n certainly its a wonderful love... we started out on 28 nov 2005... i mus say its my first time n i really dunno many things, i admit i'm childish i'm mcp i've a bad temper etc... but she jus she always be by my side tryin her best to change me trying her will to correct mi... its hard for her n she is not obliged to do so but she did because of, all because of one reason; she wants mi 2 b a better person, she is more mature den mi she is more understanding den mi tts y... yet often i let her down often i made her angry often i repeat my mistake agian... i always tot tt by being wif her (be it literally) n tts it... but in fact i wrong damn wrong i'm NOTHING really i swear... i caused many misunderstanding btw her n my ppl arnd mi i made her seem like she's e bad person no she isn't she definetely not... who dosen't hv temper??? its in born yet i kick out a fuss over it... she made a difference in my life, she made a better person out of mi... i may seem laughing arnd but 1 true fact i cant let her go i cant i dare swear i swear i really love her still... its my fault tt all of e prob hv occurred... thinkin back on 14 feb 2008... she waited for mi outside my office alone when e wind r blowing so hard she who is afraid of cold waited n waited for mi 2 give mi a surprise n yes she did... she cooked for mi she even bought a shaver for mi... yes to others it may seem nth but 2 mi it seem everything...now we jus had some prob few days ago n e progression of healing is nowhere near... but i jus wan 2 say if tis time i'm losing u forever... i wan 2 wish for all e blessing to fall on u... rmb when u found e other half... tell him nv to walk my path, tell him to treasure u well, tell him tt he made a right choice, tell him tt u r afraid of the cold, tell him tt u dont take spicy food, tell him tt u prefer him to stand on ur right side, tell him tt u love to be hug n hug him as well, tell him to joke wif u, tell him to encourage u to sing in front of him, tell tt u hate ppl spending money unnecessary, tell him tt u hate ppl to lie, tell him tt u hate ppl who act like a gangster, tell him tt u hate ppl who swear, tell him tt u always love ur piggy n ur baby, tell him tt on ur wedding day u would prefer not to hold a grand wedding dinner, tell him tt u hv thought of ur future children names, tell him to exercise wif u, tell him to take u to see dolphins... e lists jus keep goin on n on because i try 2 put everything every memories in my head but i knw nth everything can get in... but before i end tis i would request u to tell him tt in e world there's a fool a stupid fool named jeremy.
12:35:00 AM
the footsteps printed
take care
