Sunday, February 22, 2009
well came home aft sending naph off to aus.. all e best there!!! thanks everyone for e concert regarding my appendix.. i'm ok alr.. thanks :)
well there's many prob wif mi.. i guess i really hv 2 let go of alot of things.. e more i hold on n ponder e more depress i've got... honestly i tot tt i've recovered frm my depression.. but in fact i guess its back again.. i wan 2 let go i wan my head 2 stop thinkin of stupid stuff but how?? there's an angel n a devil in my head.. both fighting both talkin both giving valid points.. who am i? what am i? get out of my head both of u..
i fear tt if my mental strength is not strong i might really go mad.. hai!!!
1:56:00 AM
the footsteps printed
take care
Monday, February 2, 2009
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG very vexed.. i'm caught in e middle of many stuff!!! i wan 2 let go!!! i stress over many stupid minor stuff tt caused mi to feel damn sian... had some prob over ns stuff.. but e worst is e fact tt i think i'm fat... so i try 2 reduce my intakes n also skip meals...
but i didn't knw tt by doin so i've caused troubles onto my own health.. last nite had a great pain in my stomach tt caused mi 2 stay awake e whole day.. den seen a doc n he told mi tt my appendix is inflamed.. now if by tml e pain still stays on or as long as i have fever... i will hv 2 go for operation immediately... no i dun 1 2 go for op.. its not e pain tt matters but e money etc... hai now i'm stuck.. how can i reduce wt n stay healthy??? hai all blame myself for being so greedy in e past tt caused mi 2 b in such a state now... hai
stress is killing mi.. in ns i always feel dread n sian over it.. i always feel tt i'm being looked down.. well e fact is tt i cant find any reason 2 feel proud of my vocation.. even though its jus 2 yrs but i wan it 2 b e most meaningful.. but now it cant... plus my a lvls result is one tt can kill mi... i really hope i can do well tis yr.. pls i really really hope.. i wan 2 get into local u...
i really hope tt e issue abt fren will nt stress mi.. please i cant take it anymore.
10:14:00 PM
the footsteps printed
take care
